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My Door Is Open

Title: My Door Is Open
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: KangHae
Genre: PWP (There is more plot this time, but also porn), angst, romance
Rating: R
Length: One Shot
Warnings: None

Summary: Kangin and Donghae have always sort of had a thing, they guess. If neither of them have a partner, then their doors are always open to each other. 

Minutes crept by and drifted away unnoticed into the dark, only punctuated by soft moans and little keening sounds and panting breaths. 


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IT'S U-KNOW TIME. Letter 1

Ok folks, it’s time to get serious for a second.

Yunho-

I’ve never had so much trouble expressing something before. I’m a verbose person. I spend large parts of my life writing, or trying to speak eloquently, or playing with the word order of sentences I hear just for fun. Finding words isn’t usually hard for me, because thank god for the thesaurus.

So here I am, sitting down to try and express how much you mean to me. You, this man I have had the honor of actually laying eyes on exactly once. All I can pull up are emotions. My chest aches when I think of how hard you work, and how often you feel alone. I am inexplicably happy when I see you happy. I am awed and filled with respect when I think about how dedicated you are to your art, and how polite and respectful you are to every person you meet. I swell with love and admiration when I think of you, Yunho.

But there’s this other emotion. There’s this bittersweet pulsing Emotion that radiates from the core of my body when I think of all that is you. I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s a blend of all the emotions I get when I think about the different aspects of you. Maybe it’s just how love feels: wonderful, but terribly, terribly sad. But none of the explanations I’ve thought of click just right. Some of them make sense for part of The Emotion, but none encompass it.

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what exactly made me burst into tears at SM Town. I had been fine the entire concert. I screamed for Leeteuk and the rest of Super Junior, and I laughed my ass off at how SHINee was acting like they were on drugs. Then you and Changmin came onstage and I lost it. Something welled up inside of me, some emotion that I can’t name but is desperately important to me. That same Emotion. I think maybe it’s partly the complete dedication I feel towards you. I’ve never even met you, but I’d do anything you ask. Maybe that’s unhealthy, but who wouldn’t do the same for someone who’s changed their life so completely and for the better?

Please take care of yourself, Yunho. You work too hard. I’ve never wanted to take care of someone so badly in my life before, and I’ve practically got a hero complex. I just want you to be ok. I want you to be happy. All of Cassiopeia does, actually. We all love you. You doubted once if we did, but how could we have ever left someone with a heart as pure as yours alone? You’re a fool, Yunho. You frustrate me to no end. You over work yourself, and you forget to take care of yourself because you’re taking care of everyone else. But, it’s because of this pure heart of yours that we love you.

So yeah, we’ll stay by your side. We’ll stand by your side through every thing, trying to protect and help you as best we can. How could we let someone who cares so much about everyone he meets be harmed? It would a crime to let that pure heart be tainted.

So, to directly address how much you mean to me.

You mean everything, Yunho. I’ll openly admit I’ve created an image of you that probably isn’t real. But, there is truth in every imagining.

To me, you mean pure happiness, and you mean heartache. You mean reminding myself to work harder, and to be polite and respectful to everyone, and that I should keep my temper and give people the benefit of the doubt.

I adore you because you’re not perfect. It’s ok to cry, Yunho. Lord knows I’ve cried over you before, even outside SM Town and the cathartic release of proving to myself you really existed. It’s ok not to be the stoic leader all the time, and let people take care of you.

I hold you in the highest respect. Through all the trials you’ve been through, from an anti-fan poisoning you (and you forgave her), to having SM mistreat you, to having three of your best friends split from the band you swore to keep together, you’ve held your head high. You work harder than anyone I know, and still you maintain a sense of humility and humor, and you’re always so polite and warm and giving. You give, and you give, and you give, and fucking hell do I respect that.

I could go on for days about how much I respect you, how much you mean to me, and how beautiful you are. But for now, I’ll leave it at this.

Happy birthday, Jung Yunho. I hope today and the rest of this year is the best you’ve ever had, because you deserve it.


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Interband Relations (Part 2, or And Junsu Is Not As Innocent As Previously Thought)

Title: Interband Relations (Part 2, or And Junsu Is Not As Innocent As Previously Thought)
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: MinSu
Genre: PWP (There is more plot this time, but also porn)
Rating: R
Length: 4 Parts (HoMin, MinSu, 2U, Jae/SURPRISE)
Warnings: Smutty
Part One (HoMin): Read more... )

“Junsu.” Changmin interrupted. “Please just tell me why you dragged me away from a really excellent game of Halo.”

Junsu swallowed and lowered his voice until he was almost whispering. “I’ve never given a blow job, and I want to know what it’s like.”


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Update on Fics: WOO HUGE POST UPDATE

I'm going to try and finish Chapter 4 of Broken Silence tonight (though that might not happen), but I don't want to post it until most of Chapter 5 is written so my updates can at least sort of resemble consistent.

Park Strangers, and It Is Possible To Be Happy... don't wait up for this. I've got HoMin's part in the works, but I'm not feeling particularly inspired. I'm feelin' the whole vampire vibe right now. I've got JaeSu's whole next part where they really become a couple planned, but I haven't started writing.

Some Emotions Feel Like Others is almost done, I just need to, once again, learn how to write smut without it sounding stilted and awkward. Also, I think it needs a new name. Originally I named it that because (SPOILERS~) Changmin mistook his love for Yunho as hatred, buuuut... I think it needs a catchier title. If you've read it, and have ideas, feel free to leave one for me.

Part II of Break Me Yours is coming along, but MinSu's Interband Relations, Broken Silence, and Some Emotions Feel Like Others all take precedent over it, because they've been in the works longer. But it's really lovely. Yoochun leaves, and then emotions, and then lots of sex. It's the best ever. :P

Interband Relations Part III (2U!) is in the works, but not high on my list....

I started a new series of one shots that hasn't been named yet, but has to do with predestined soul mates and things. :) So that's a thing that is happening.

I'll try to get things done as quickly as I can, but school is demanding and I get writer's block easily, so stay with me. If you want, you can send me messages telling me I'm a lazy ass, and I need to write. XD

SO, QUICK OVERVIEW:
  Things I am working on and will be updated/ completed hopefully by March:
  • Interband Relations
  • Broken Silence
  • Some Emotions Feel Like Others
  Things I am working on but are not high on the list:
  • Part II of Break Me Yours
  • Park Strangers, and It Is Possible To Be Happy
  • Soul Mates fic
  In my archive of unfinished/ unposted fics I have:
  • A 2U vampire fic that I password protected and can't find the password for D:
  • An adorably fluffy HoMin
  • A MinChun where they're playing a game where Changmin gives Yoochun 3 weeks to hide anywhere in the world and then tracks him down, and when he catches him Yoochun has to sort of be his slave for the inverse of the time it took Changmin to find him.
  • A Yunho x YamaPi where they meet/fuck at a club
  • A MinSu where Changmin's a slave (totally AU) who always disobeys, Taemin is his master/ in love with him, but Changmin doesn't love him back, so Taemin tries to get him arrested and killed by the court, but Junsu offers to take him. Good angsty love story.
  • A fluffly MinChun vampire fic
  • A fluffy YooSu I was writing for a friend, but then forgot about
  • A 2U hotel fic, where Yunho friend's hire him a prostitute (Chunnie) and a hotel room for his birthday, but he's a gentleman and ends up offering to buy Yoochun away because he doesn't want him to have to live that life (and he's possessive) and then they fall in love and stuff then end.

Also, I've got an unfinished, probably will never finish, Yoochun x Arashi's Aiba Masaki (it was supposed to be Chun's part of Park Strangers), if anybody wants it. It's cute. Unfinished, but cute. So if you want me to post that, drop me a line.
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Broken Silence (Chapter 2)

Title: Broken Silence (Chapter 2)
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: HoMin
Genre: Vampire fic!, angst, romance
Rating: R (possible NC-17 in later chapters)
Length: Chaptered
Warnings: Vampirism, Bullying (on the part of non-main characters)

Chapter 1: Read more... ) Chapter 2: Read more... ) Chapter 3: Read more... )

Eyes met his. They didn’t look up at him. They looked straightforward into his, panicked and terrified.

    “Please help me.”

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Broken Silence

Title: Broken Silence (Chapter 1)
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: HoMin
Genre: Vampire fic!, angst, romance
Rating: R (possible NC-17 in later chapters)
Length: Chaptered
Warnings:
Vampirism, bullying (on the part of non-main characters)

Chapter 1: Read more... ) Chapter 2: Read more... ) Chapter 3: Read more... )
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Some Emotions Feel Like Others (Chapter 6)

Title: Some Emotions Feel Like Others (Chapter 6)
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: HoMin
Genre: School Verse, angst
Rating: R, NC-17 in later parts
Length: Chaptered
Warnings:
Language, BDSM, Master/Servant play, whipping/spanking, EMOTIONS (All in later chapters)

“I… I spent a really long time fervently believing that I didn’t, but now… Every action has an equal reaction, I guess.”

Chapter One: Read more... ) Chapter Two: Read more... ) Chapter 3:Read more... )  Chapter 4:Read more... ) Chapter 5: Read more... ) Chapter 6: Read more... )

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Some Emotions Feel Like Others (Chapter 5)

Title: Some Emotions Feel Like Others (Chapter 5)
Author: Pandasobi
Pairing: HoMin
Genre: School Verse, angst
Rating: R, NC-17 in later parts
Length: Chaptered
Warnings:
Language, BDSM, Master/Servant play, whipping/spanking, EMOTIONS (All in later chapters)

“I… Are we being completely honest, Changmin? Are we telling each other everything?”

Chapter One: Read more... ) Chapter Two: Read more... ) Chapter 3:Read more... )  Chapter 4:Read more... ) Chapter 5: Read more... ) Chapter 6: Read more... )

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